As I’ve gotten older, there have been many advancements in the management of type 1 diabetes. However, I’ve also noticed a correlation between technological advancements and how much stuff I have to carry around with me. When I was first diagnosed, I had an insulin vile, syringe and my glucose meter. Simple enough. A year later, I switched from injections to an insulin pump, a device that literally is always by your side. Next came the continuous glucose monitor, a monitor that takes a reading every few minutes and graphs trends in blood glucose over time. Since it uses a wireless signal, it can’t be more than a few feet away, meaning it’s another device to carry around. And let’s not forget about always having something on you to treat a low blood sugar. For me, these are packets of fruit snacks. Luckily being a woman, I can shove most of it in a purse, but it does get to be cumbersome. And that’s just for my diabetes. Throw in my wallet, keys, and cellphone and I’ve already got a pretty packed purse. I sincerely hope that these medical device companies follow in the footsteps of companies like Apple, and continue to make their products slimmer, lighter, and smaller. Or better yet, make one device that does it all! My shoulder and back would be very grateful.
All these things to carry means there’s more to forget. While most kids growing up just had to worry about not forgetting their lunch or their homework, I had to make sure that I did not go anywhere without my fruit snacks and meter. Seems trivial, but if you get low blood sugar and don’t have a way to treat it, things can get dangerous very quickly. This definitely taught me to be responsible at a young age. And I must admit, I did use that increased responsibility to my advantage. For instance, I was one of the first of my friends to get a cell phone back when it was unusual for a 13 or 14 year old to have one. Thanks mom and dad! 😉
Pockets are another big thing. When I first got my insulin pump, a year after being diagnosed, I was still self-conscious and did not want it to show. I kept the pump in my pocket and the cord tucked away. When it was clipped to my pants, I was constantly asked if it was a pager, to which my initial response was always, “I’m 14, why would I need a pager??” Eventually though, I saw this question as an opportunity to teach people about diabetes and what an insulin pump does. I discovered that most people were just curious and were interested in hearing about it. Today I’m not concerned if my pump shows or not, although I still prefer pockets.
I’ve also learned to not be self-conscious about all the different things attached to my stomach, especially at the beach or pool. Between my infusion set and wireless sensor, things can start to feel a little crowded, in addition to being a bit unusual looking. Rather than feeling uncomfortable, I’ve learned to view it as a conversation starter. Granted not many random people ever stop me to ask what they are, but if they did, I’d be ready!
It’s easy to get caught up in all the negatives, to adopt a “woe is me” attitude. I’ll admit that I’ve had my moments of self-pity. But what good does that really do you? Feeling sorry for yourself isn’t going to make things better or easier. What does help is trying to find something positive about the situation or to even compare your circumstances to those who have it worse than you, and many, many people do. Yeah I have a lot of stuff to carry, but that’s just a good excuse to buy a cute purse to hold it all. Yeah I have an insulin pump attached to me all the time, but at least it is small enough to fit in my pocket and not something that has to be wheeled around. Yeah I have to have fruit snacks with me wherever I go, but at least they are delicious 🙂
If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude.
~ Maya Angelou